God's a sneeky old guy

Ever get the feeling something's fixing to happen to you? Not a bad thing, but that something big is about to come along that drastically changes your life? Like maybe the guy you've been dating for years all the sudden started acting weird and cutting back on spending and your dad somehow slips that he came to visit him the other day? That feeling of something big looming on the horizon but that is just out of your view. Yeah. That's my life right now.

God's doing awesome things at our church. People are joining our family and accepting Jesus and plugging in to our ministries. People are visiting our services and coming back to visit more. The 'powers that be' are even stepping up to make some necessary changes to our facilities and other things that have been sitting on go for years now. We have people rising to leadership who are real and who are living their lives for God, who are ready to take action. There are some awesome things happening, and I feel like God's got something big planned for us. 'The fields are there for the taking.'

And I have a feeling there is something waiting for me in the midst of all this. I have a degree in youth ministry. I've done ministry before. I hated it. I told God I wouldn't do it again. Ever. Told him to figure out a new plan for me cuz I wasn't going down that road. So somehow I wound up in Cisco, Texas teaching Spanish. I started going to FBC where I happened to know all of the ministers when I walked in the door. Soon after I got here our music minister left and without any specific personal desire I volunteered to lead the music. Then I told God he had to send me some friends or I was leaving. So he sent me Angel. Who just happened to be in charge of the college Bible study. And again, without any real personal desire to do so, I plugged myself in with that ministry and eventually found myself in the lead there as well.

And since I started going to our church I've had a sneaking suspicion that God had a place in ministry for me there. Not like layperson-leadership ministry, but vocational paycheck-says-FBC-on-it ministry. And I have this feeling that something's about to happen that will bring me into that place.

What's funny is that I told God I wouldn't ever do it again and now, after years of serching for direction and alternatives to my current situation, I find myself actually wishing that it would just happen. That the time would finally be here. I've been waiting for the the other hand to drop for so long now I actually WANT to be in ministry. I actually WANT to go to seminary. (What!?!??? I know!) But it took all this time, these years of stressful job, overloaded schedule, searching for my purpose, hating life here, hating life in general, and now I am back in a place where my desires match up with God's desires for me.

Like I said, God's a sneeky old guy...